End of the world

Today, I killed myself.

That person who loves you more than herself.
That person who cares about everybody but herself.
That person who still believed in fairy tales.

What should I do?

I'm currently in my room, can't figure out anything at all. I can't shop and heck, I bought a box car. I'm addicted to this song though:

I'm not sure what to feel, what to think. I've ran into the wall and a dead end again. Help me.

Dramatic yet realistic

I'll die if I don't do this:

Did anyone hear me? I'll DIEEEEEEEE. Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Asos, Warehouse, Gucci, Chanel, BCBG, Cartier, Christian Louboutin, they all miss me. I know it cause I can hear them in my sleep :P Its been 7 months. One more month and I'll die. Time for a little girl power ;)

Box Cars

I totally hate it when cars with a back like this:

Whether its a nissan or a myvi, drives on the right lane. They tend to clog the right lanes (who are suppose to be lanes for cars that can travel at a velocity of 150km/hr and above) to overtake cars like these:

They think they're travelling at the speed of 230km/hr when their real speed is 90km/hr. Not sure whether its a trend now, but every single box cars are doing it. Just because your car is freaking small and light that makes you feel like you're flying when you're driving it at the rate of 90km/hr doesn't mean that you can actually qualify to travel at the right lane. Face it, you're freaking SLOW so stop causing traffic jams and start to learn to use the middle lane!

Oh and one more thing, when every single car flashes their headlights at you, it means fuck off to the left lane, not asking you to try to drive a little faster, trying to match a Ferrari's speed. I officially hate box cars.

Fact

What do they have in common? They're both jackass. Smart jackass. Mentally sexy smart jackass. I dig. 

Update?

Its been a week since I last updated. I started my classes on Tuesday this week. The college is great, but not for materialistic people or semi-materialistic people, like me, to like that place. Everything was sufficient and I am very happy to be in that college. People was nice. VERY nice. Can't find a snob there. Made friends since the first day, have lunch with the whole class yesterday. I made them laugh but I had a dream the same night, seeing the words 'you're crazy....." can't remember the latter part. Its something bad. :(

Coping with work is very easy right now because I ran out of FSR, but I'm really really tired today so I skipped school. I have a bad feeling. Kelvin probably hate me right now. Was late for his class yesterday (fashionably late! :p) and today I have 2 classes with him and I skipped both. I don't know why I just am so tempted to keep skipping his class.

I'm looking forward to the days when I'm having loads of work and heavy homeworks. I wanna see how will I be tortured, coping with money and my future.

I love him.=D

A Rainy Thursday

Woke up at 6am with an unconscious mind. Don't know where I am, don't know what I was doing. Odd. The next thing I know I was waking up again at 11am with a knock on the door. It was my aunt, she's trying to convince me to go to Auckland for my studies again. When can she get it that I'm not interested???? But what she proposed makes sense.

One year from July 2011 to study in ACG senior college, Auckland is like me taking up A-levels in KBU for April intake. The experience is definitely better than studying in KBU but my life would be different. No income, no freedom. Income would be the last I would sacrifice. I then went straight to KBU to pass them the cheque to confirm my enrollment (I guess I just enrolled myself into the nerdiest school ever :P) . The only support I need is my mom's.

I did a silly thing when I was at KBU though. I parked outside because I was lazy to register to enter. Right after everything was said and done, I realized I lost my keys somewhere. When I went back to my car, there it is, sitting in the lock of my car's door. How can I just forget like that? Felt like I'm getting more forgetful and dumber since the motorcycle incident last year. This sucks.

Now all I am lack of is accommodation. Student house, hostel or 1 bukit Utama?

 This is 1 Bukit Utama. This is crazily expensive (planning to rent it with someone else anyway) but I don't have to pay for gym and there's a swimming pool :D The security is wayyy better too.

 This is the student house. Looks decent, cheap rent but one house there's 7 rooms. Per room there's 1 - 6 person. Crazy. So many people.

The hostel is located above centrepoint. Centrepoint is a crappy place though. Hostel doesn't allow anyone to cook.

I'm still torn with 1 Bukit Utama and the student's house,  but I'd prefer 1 Bukit Utama though. Gotta pick on Friday, if its 1BU, pay on Saturday then move a few stuff in on Sunday. Monday gotta move the furnitures if they don't have any. I am seriously confused.

Oh and I checked out toyota today. I totally love the new Prius!

Not the outlook, but the performance. Go google it.

New planned schedule:

-Class, Work, Cook, Watch Mythbusters, Study, Sleep.

Boring I know. Oh wait I forgot something. Change of schedule:

- Class, Work, Cook, Watch Mythbusters, Study, Boyfriend, Sleep.

Yes I am upset for nothing, again.